Additionally, wondering what eye cream and other anti-aging products one should use at this juncture will also take up an inordinate amount of inner dialogue and emotional space in your heart. I'm a little ashamed to admit that, but there it is.
My mother, in her familiar wisdom, keeps telling me that "it's just a number." I know this, but it still feels like a life monument of some sort. And, even though I try to tell myself that "forty is the new thirty," I can't decide if this is denial or not.
So, the question lingers, "What am I going to do now?" Because, with that turn of the calendar, there is an urgency that appears, a sense of time speeding up, of second chances being fewer and of every choice carrying just a little more weight than it did before.
I feel less angst than I did in my twenties and thirties. And yet, I can't help but still feel a nagging at the back of my mind that I need to figure some things out now that I have presumably made it to the middle of my life.
So far, I haven't figured anything out.
But, I did make a short To-Do list, because I'm good at lists. Here it is:
Grow in Wisdom
Do the Things that Matter
Create Something Beautiful
Beat Back Suffering
Learn How to Rest
Honorable mention goals: make better snack choices, stop reading celebrity news, and call my grandma once a week.
Other suggestions for living a better life as a middle-aged person are welcome.
